Waiting

I feel bad for what i'm doing to my friends they are like my second family but lately since i have had this problem i have been really distant. I'm surprised that my best friend is still even talking to me now that is what you call a true friend. His family is so opening they treat me like im like one of the family members. i really never thank him for that i want to say thank you for that thank you everything. I have been working on getting better but the way to get better i think is to open up but i think its easier said then done its like i want to bring it up but i just cant its weird. I want to go back to high school do things different not mess up and just do it over again i think things would of turned out way better but the thing i wouldnt change is meeting my brother gus we butt heads sometimes but pssssh we fresh. I will write more this in a different post but hopefully you read this well anybody and please comment i want to see peoples vies on my poooosts.

Lost

i feel lost i change this last couple of years i struggle with anxiety its gotten really good i don't really stress about it as much. but recently I've had this problem its hard to come out and say it but blushing Ive always been quiet shy but blushing it happens allot. It has gotten so bad it happens around my family i hate it, I'm loosing friends over it because if i go out i get the burning feeling and people stare i mean i don't blame them but i wish they understood its not like i want too. I want to talk about it but i cant its weird Ive heard about this surgery and well no lie I'm thinking about it but i always have this problem with people are gonna be like such a waste of money and all but its because i swear i try allot of things and nothing seems to work. Well i don't know i just wanted to write about this I'm new to this but i would love feedback of what you think, if u suffer too or just anything, i just want to go back to me being around my friends but i don't see them ever well yeah its getting to long thanks and bye 

Jorgito

Idk

Idk i just started this blog dont know how this work but i will post more.