Lost

i feel lost i change this last couple of years i struggle with anxiety its gotten really good i don't really stress about it as much. but recently I've had this problem its hard to come out and say it but blushing Ive always been quiet shy but blushing it happens allot. It has gotten so bad it happens around my family i hate it, I'm loosing friends over it because if i go out i get the burning feeling and people stare i mean i don't blame them but i wish they understood its not like i want too. I want to talk about it but i cant its weird Ive heard about this surgery and well no lie I'm thinking about it but i always have this problem with people are gonna be like such a waste of money and all but its because i swear i try allot of things and nothing seems to work. Well i don't know i just wanted to write about this I'm new to this but i would love feedback of what you think, if u suffer too or just anything, i just want to go back to me being around my friends but i don't see them ever well yeah its getting to long thanks and bye 

Jorgito