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I feel bad for what i'm doing to my friends they are like my second family but lately since i have had this problem i have been really distant. I'm surprised that my best friend is still even talking to me now that is what you call a true friend. His family is so opening they treat me like im like one of the family members. i really never thank him for that i want to say thank you for that thank you everything. I have been working on getting better but the way to get better i think is to open up but i think its easier said then done its like i want to bring it up but i just cant its weird. I want to go back to high school do things different not mess up and just do it over again i think things would of turned out way better but the thing i wouldnt change is meeting my brother gus we butt heads sometimes but pssssh we fresh. I will write more this in a different post but hopefully you read this well anybody and please comment i want to see peoples vies on my poooosts.